Am I Beautiful
A Ballad For Dreams
Chronic
Creep
The Day Before Tomorrow
Don't Make A Call
Fall Apart, Nevermore
Glass Of Water
Heads Or Tails
Heavenly Peace
Long Lasting, Never Ending...
Minutes To Monday
Mistakes
No Lights Around
One Cloudy Day
Overdose
Snow
Thirst For More
To The Bitter End
Unwritten Promises
Wasted Tears
When Everything Has Been Said
©2003-2008 Stigmatize
Am I Beautiful
7.8.2008
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
When hard times will be coming
won't you be running away from me?
We're getting older
Times will change
And we must carry on this race
I'm too tired to be that person I used to be
We must hold our hands so tight
Tighter than before or we will die
This beauty we have built along these years
Nothing's gonna be taking away from us
As you hold me in your arms
It will keep us safe
When hard times will be coming
won't you be running away from me?
We're getting older
Times will change
And we must carry on this race
When hard times will be coming
won't you be running away from me?
You hear me asking:
"Am I beautiful?"
I know the answer:
"Yes, now you are..."
How could I be again that person
who you fell in love with?
Everyday it gets harder and harder
to show you how I feel
Don't you see it?
Still you who I'm waiting for
to come in bed when I fall asleep
As you hold me in your arms
It will keep us safe
When hard times will be...
Am I beautiful?
Am I beautiful?
Am I beautiful?
Am I beautiful?!
When hard times will be coming
won't you be running away from me?
We're getting older
Times will change
And we must carry on this race
When hard times will be coming
won't you be running away from me?
You hear me asking:
"Am I beautiful?"
I know the answer
and it's a lie!
Alkuun
A Ballad For Dreams
22.3.2005
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
The way you faced me was not so great
You faced my lies, create my dreams
You came and faded away
I live this life like I couldn´t see
Failures and mistakes are following me
You should stay far away
You could wake me up again
You´d wake me up once again
After those days I´ve been searching for
I opened my eyes, saw what I did adore
You were everything to me?
You could wake me up again
You really woke me up again
Oh then you took my heart away
You made my day
Always feeling the same
Though no one here will stay
Today I know you were not the one
You wasted my time and now it´s done
Why did you throw me away?
I can´t count all those times you´ve made me cry
Those days when only you were in my mind
Then you left and stopped the game
But you could still wake me up
You´ll wake me up once again
Alkuun
Chronic
24.10.2008
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
Now you can run but you never can hide
Wherever you go, your demons will find
I can feel it - hopeless mood in my mind
I can see it - this damned fear won't go by
It won't die
I set it free!
It won't leave
Sometimes when there's only a darkness 'round me
I can sense their cold presence among you and me
I can hear it - that voice you can't hear
I can see it - that damned face you couldn't bear
And it is here!
I set it free!
It won't leave
Lives in me
I'm waiting
Waiting for a new rising dawn
I got to find some kind of cure
I can feel it - ruthless voice in my head
And I see it - its endless hunger must be met
Someone tell me how to love myself as I am
I am killing a piece of me
with each day I leave behind
I set it free
It won't leave
Lives in me
Won't leave
I set it free!
It won't leave!
Lives in me!
Killing me...
Alkuun
Creep
6.3.2006
Säv. J-P Vuolle
San. A. Järvinen & P. Aho
Always been a girl who they want me to be
I have always known what they wanna see
God I hope it´s over
I can´t take it anymore
Now I think it´s over
I just care no more
Always been a girl who they want me to be
I have always known what people are expecting from me
Keeps spoiling me, corrupting me
Ruins all the values which I have thrown away
Exhausting me, keeps me weak
for so long that I can see
I am nothing but a creep
Always been a girl who they want me to be
I have always known what people are wanting from me
God I hope it´s over
I can´t take it anymore
Now I think it´s over
I just care no more
Alkuun
The Day Before Tomorrow
21.8.2006
Säv. A. Järvinen & J-P Vuolle
San. A. Järvinen
Once upon a time there was two boys
Maybe they´d just given too many tries
They´re dreaming up in their minds
Someday, somehow, someway they will shine
You´re dragging on this feeling
Perhaps you will make me see it
Now has come the time when we must draw the line
The boys are gone... Time has taken, left behind
All the things I can´t recognize
Yet we´ve not lived this life
What could make us satisfied?
Much we would learn from denying lies
What could make us see inside
We are we - they are they
I am writing my poem:
" You all just go by - I am gazing
Don´t know what or why
I know I´m that same no more
Too much you saw "
" I´m acting my role
I also know who rocks the boat
The script has been written
The day before tomorrow "
Wake me up
The day before tomorrow
Wake me up
The day before tomorrow
Once upon a time you got soaked to the skin
A cloudburst crested over your head
Then our blind eyes opened up with a light
The light guides us, someday we´ll find you
and all the things I can´t recognize
Yet we´ve not lived this tale
You´re dragging on this feeling
Once upon a time there was two boys
Maybe they´d just given too many tries
They´re dreaming up in their minds
Someday, somehow, someway...
Alkuun
Don't Make A Call
13.8.2007
Säv. A. Järvinen & J-P Vuolle
San. A. Järvinen
When you need me, darling
I'm so faraway
Don't you think it's time to
throw away our dreams?
When you miss me, honey
Do I feel the same?
When we say goodbye
So, please don't cry
Don't wanna see your red eyes...
Nightmares I have
Cold sweat on my skin!
I still dare not open my eyes
When you loved me, honey
...I can't recall
Don't you think it's time to
throw away this ring?
When you will miss me, my darling
Please, don't make a call
Don't make a call!
Alkuun
Fall Apart, Nevermore
28.2.2007
Säv. A. Järvinen & J-P Vuolle
San. A. Järvinen
I´m trying to write something clever
Today I got to know
what means when you fall apart
Do you think it's easy to hear
that same old song again
Just before tears will come
I don't know why this feeling
He left so long time ago
When I was born...
Plans won't always come true
Promises aren't always pure
We both were so sure
There must be something more
The most valuable can break too
Don't know what is truth
What do you now want from your life
To get the old times back?
Before you fall apart
We're trying to live those days again
It doesn't feel the same
Nevermore
Nothing lasts forever
So take the hand in yours
When it is still there as offered
Someday you will be alone
Alkuun
Glass Of Water
20.2.2008
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
A glass of water for this headache
So familiar action for all of us at last tomorrow
We had so much fun - still yesterday
Some kind of desperation I face today
Takes me deeper and deeper in this maze
I let my mind to go astray
Where did I come from?
Where shall I go?
I've already seen this place
So many times before - mistake!
Have I lost the way out of here?
I should get up, take a shower
I hope tomorrow this is over
I'd bear no longer
How can't I remember
that I have slept with that cock-eyed prick?!
It lies behind my back and
takes me deeper and deeper in this maze...
Alkuun
Heads Or Tails
23.7.2007
Säv. A. Järvinen & S. Nurila
San. A. Järvinen & P. Aho
Could it be too easy
to be a man
Who has saved this world a few times
You can trust - it's easy
You can smash the bad guys with your arms
No harms
You have seen
A dark side of human being
Do you still believe?
Is there
some kind of beauty left
When you are gone
Your life was heads or tails
But it was you
who also threw the coin and made a choice
Now it's getting harder
You had it all
and now you are losing even more
You have to listen
cause I'm about to tell
how things are going to an end
You used to stand so strong
but now those times are gone
No more
Now we gather to see
the ruins of your soul
One or another
You were always the other one
You took your chance
and you blew it every time
This is the prize
You paid it with your life
Alkuun
Heavenly Peace
24.5.2007
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
You're the one
Who taught me to lose
The one who planned the rules
You knew all I wanted was you
You really taught me the ropes
There you are - sitting right next to me
This is what I write about and for
I waited for so long
I think you know I'm gazing you
Your cheeks are red - your eyes so blue
You're the one...
You've been in my mind
Too many times to be right
I'd rather die alone in this cage
Than cry down this love
Do you think you could feel
a sweet reality with me?
You're the one
Who taught me to lose
The one who planned the rules
You knew all I wanted was you
You're the one
Who taught me to lose
The one who planned the rules
You knew all I wanted was you
You would bring me a heavenly peace
Alkuun
Long-lasting, Never-ending
27.9.2005
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
Don´t cry - there´s no relieves in sight
Don´t fly - there´s no wings of your size
Don´t cry - there´s much more than we´ve seen
Delight - an illusion for our grief
Will I miss this life I´m leaving behind
I´m dreaming behind
this face - you have seen
Will I miss her in the dark of the night
I try to fight against her incredibility
Please, try to make me forget your lines
Oh why does it have to be so hard
In my crime - you have the biggest headline
Tonight - somebody else might be mine
Alkuun
Minutes To Monday
10.7.2007
Säv. J-P Vuolle & Stigmatize
San. A. Järvinen
Take me! Taste me!
I have everything you used to need
Break me! Feel me!
I have what you should need
Freaky silence in your head
when you come in bed
5 minutes to Monday
You won't wake me up
So you don't need to touch
4 minutes to Monday
I am still here for you
You know I'm feeling blue
After you've told your lies
Our moment dies
You won't wake me up
You can't get it up
Minutes to Monday
That is not enough!
Do we have a clue
what we are looking for?
Everything we reach
Does it matter at all?
How could you know
That you hold the key
You just cannot see?
Some things will change
Some things will stay
Someday they will still fade away
A silence - will be ending soon
Alkuun
Mistakes
23.5.2008
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
Couldn't we just walk away
Forget all those mistakes we made?
Would be much easier that way
Could we just forget the day
we started to act this play?
Would be much easier that way
If you think I'm wasting your days
We should separate our ways
It will be much easier this time
We're wasting our days
These problems we should face
They won't be any easier next time
You can keep me in your heart
Keep me wherever you want
I can't keep you in my arms tonight
Cause you're not mine!
Alkuun
No Lights Around
2.5.2006
Säv. J-P Vuolle
San. P. Aho & A. Järvinen
So you want me to guide you... You´re too late
You want me to tell you how life should go on
All you had to do was to say, you are sorry
You couldn´t - I am gone
I don´t know why tears are falling from my eyes
When I´m gazing my sky
Time is waiting for no one
Past will never come towards you and me
Road to the end
Then you wanted me to believe in... you and me
You asked me to love you - still life should go on
All you had to do was to see, I´m not sorry
Everything is gone - now it´s done
There is no lights around
Suddenly - everything is clear
Time is waiting for no one
Past will never come towards you and me
Road to the end!
So you want me to guide you... You´re too late
You want me to tell you how life should go on
All you had to do was to say, you are sorry
You couldn´t - I am gone
There is no lights around
But I still here the sound
Alkuun
One Cloudy Day
8.12.2005
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
After your last words I was grobing the ground beneath me
That ground I´ve trudged for so long - Drearily
Every now and again
I´m just a roomer in this roomy place to live
A tasteful poster on your wall - no place for me
Phrases after phrases - drearily
This is the story ´bout how my life could be
One cloudy day would´ve been enough
On that day the passion of life drew down
These fairy tales I´m believing in
They´re a part of me... Root and branch
Our nightly finds are really wearing us down once again
"Satisfy me, my slave!" The name of our game
Such a love affair
I´m waking up from a bed which surely ain´t mine
This is all I deserve! I don´t know why...
Just a one cloudy day in my life
Is this the story ´bout how my life could be?
One cloudy day would´ve been enough
On that day the passion of life drew down
These fairy tales I´m believing in
They´re a part of me... Root and branch
Alkuun
Overdose
7.4.2006
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
Couldn´t make this life so easy
that I could breathe
I will never share this feeling
Or I must start to preach
Force me to stare deep in your eyes
You know this all rests on the lies
I know what I was standing for
This is giving me so much more
Thinking about, to live for
I must start to preach before...
You make me spill
You make me feel
You make me everything I never wanted to be
You have always seen
You have always been
You´re my overdose, everything I truly need
Couldn´t rip this arrow off
The amorous grief
I would never break this feeling
Or I must start to preach
Force me to stare deep in your eyes
You know this all rests on the lies
Alkuun
Snow
Tammikuu 2003
Säv. J-P Vuolle
San. A. Järvinen
Sometimes it´s good to listen how the clock goes on
Hear how the end knocks the door
Sometimes it´s good to see how the stars are following you
Everything is only for you
Pull the snow inside... in your head
Erase your mind from this dimension
Confuses me, don´t say how it works
I won´t follow for your mistakes
Sometimes it´s good to think that those eyes gaze at you
After all she thinks you´re a fool
Sometimes it´s good to feel how someone is loving you
Someday that feeling has gone too
Alkuun
Thirst For More
20.6.2007
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen & P. Aho
Looks so scary around me
So far as I can see
Is there nothing to hold on?
Looks so familiar to me
So far as I can see
Dreams I can see no more
But you will be beside me
And you will see in me
Just like in Heaven
I believe in you
We grow together
And thirst for more
Feels so strange inside me
Hearing voices around
But there's nothing to hold on
Confuse my feelings
and open my eyes
It's all coming clear
But you will be beside me
And you will see in me
Feels like in Heaven
I feel for you
We are together
And thirst for more
Alkuun
To The Bitter End
9.11.2007
Säv. A. Järvinen, J-P Vuolle & S. Nurila
San. A. Järvinen
I have hurt you about 1000 times
I have a skill to make you cry
I guess Heaven is too good for me
I swear - that's how you also feel
Nothing's gonna be alright
Never after this kind of fight
I have lied to you so many times
Only to disguise another lies
I try to keep my head in one piece
I just need some peace
I fall asleep
I'm going back in time
When I wrote this brief - for you
"For the first time I can see
The real happiness in me
Don't you leave
You could share it with me
All I need - the warmth when you breathe
The love when you sleep - beside me"
You're betrayed by everyone you knew
Once or twice - it's still the same cold truth
And you - yourself - are the worst, last sin
Since your mind just decided to sit in
Nothing's gonna be alright
Never in this raped mind
I fall asleep
What if I won't wake up
Then I write this brief - for no one...
Alkuun
Unwritten Promises
6.11.2008
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
Everytime we fail
Face that same disgrace
Does it matter anymore
what we say
Everytime we fall
Still climbing higher - what for
No need to suffer
No need to crawl
Nothing we gain
Everything we are giving away
What can we say
Everything we have done has mistaken?
Nothing but pain
We will carry on with this faith
Everytime we say:
"This lonely love won't last"
A hatred fills our hearts
Makes us insane
Everytime we pray
God turns Her back on you and me
It doesn't mean, She wouldn't hear
all the shit we say
Nothing we gain
Everything we are giving away
Nothing but pain
We will carry on with this faith
What can we say
Everything we have done has mistaken?
Nothing but pain
Everything we will lose anyway
Alkuun
Wasted Tears
11.12.2006
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
Finally we have no rights... Not even to die
Still sometimes we try to fly
to find the limits, to defy the death
We know the consequences of everything we do
When the direction is chosen, can´t be changed afterward
Mothers´ wasted tears
All those sleepless nights - Full of worry
Hoping they´ll survive
Fathers´ hatreds ´n fears
Their feelings so deep
"I am sorry. I wasn´t there
...my grown-up child"
Finally we have no rights... Not even to die
Still sometimes we try to fly
to find the limits, to defy the death
We know the consequences of everything we do
When the direction is chosen, can´t be changed afterward
We have so many ways to use our time here
Only a few people know : " This got to be my place!"
As a blind - unable to see - if the route is
different than before
Are you ready to face the death?
Alkuun
When Everything Has Been Said
24.5.2007
Säv. A. Järvinen
San. A. Järvinen
Don't even bother to be my friend
It's so much easier to shake hands
Carry this to the end
Don't even try to say you understand
Much more depressing is this life
You couldn't realize
Can you see the word
Written in the sand
Do I still have time?
I've been here for awhile
Most has sailed away
Will you read the rhyme?
There is no masters, there is no babes
Only the real things like you and me
Our dead love and hate
Our wasted masterpiece - raped, wiped off
Everything is empty but a table
Your fingerprints won't fade away
When everything has been said
There's nothing left to save
Reality changes
There's no reason to stay
Just go all the way...
Alkuun
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